I just wanna share my biggest stupidity in life!!! :)

He was my biggest stupidity and you know what makes it more sutpid??

I browsed his profile in friendster.. I don't know what came up to me but I decided to read his testimonials.. I found out that he hasn't deleted yet his "ex girlfriend turned latest girlfriend's" testimonial ( those ones that were dated 2005 ) eventhough we we're together.. that time..( 2006 )

I've read "those" beacause there was five.. i guess.. and found this things out:

a) term of endearment.. duhh.. the same- can't you be more creative huh? or you're just that daft or whatever??

b) I don't know if this is coincidence or what but... we ( its between you and me and you and her.. just clarifying ) have the same motto!!! that whatever happens to us we will stick with each other.. arrrgggghhhh :)

c) that she gave you a thousand letters ( just like what I did.. though its corny.. o well!!.. )

d) you argue most of the times.. just like us..( yeah yeah whatevar )

e) that she told you that you were a great actor?? ( haha .. whoooh.. tell me about it )

f) that you deleted my testimonial.. ( well I've already found that out months ago )

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g) he's a big loser.. ( haha I told myself that I'm not gonna be bitter.. I'm not.. haha I'm just tellin the whole damn truth )

I've moved on right.. haha.. but I just wanna tell how foolish he is.. foolish for letting me go?? nah.. I already knew that he was foolish since the day that we met.. hahaha...

and If ever he will be reading this.. I don't give a damn.. haha.. :)

the percussionist

At last!... I've finally made someone agree to teach me how to play the drums..the only problem is, I don't have any free time.. arrrgggghh... and I'm not willing to skip school for it.. haha.. but I really wanted to learn.. hmmm...

So I think I have to wait till next sem.. hopefully I can get a morning schedule so I'll be able to study the super mystifying drums.. :) tadaaaahhh....

Isabelle the drummer.. yeah that sounds cool.. I wonder what he will be looking like if he finds out.. haha.. o well I don't give a damn if he hates it or whatever.. :)

I just can't wait.... hopefully I can really start with the lessons next sem.. but I'm having a feeling that by that time I'm too lazy to practice "again".. just like what happend to my violin lessons.. har har.. so wish me luck :)

I MISS THE SAND

Its been quite long enough, summer days;summer sun; summer sand; summer fling. I promised myself that I wouldn't write anything about it anymore but it's ok I have moved on..

1 month, 3 days, 16 hours and 5 more mins and its been a year.. I cannot forget that day. That very moment when you asked me if we could be together. I was blinded by excitment, happiness and love... I never thought that you still loved her... All I was caring about was YOU were mine.. I was yours and WE were together.

We shared so many good times together. Although were completely opposites. I accepted you just the way you are..on the other hand you wanted me to change .

And then you left me...

I thought I wouldn't be able to feel again how it is to be happy for I believed that you were my happiness. I kept thinking about you.. I kept thinking "what if we were still together" . I was always having thoughts that someday your heart will eventually go back to its home. I was always missing you're company. Everything was so painful...

Yes, time do heals...

I don't miss you anymore for I've completely accepted the fact that everything was a lie.. I have finally woken from a dream and have stepped back to reality. Thank God, I have totally moved on...I don't feel the bitterness and pain anymore.

I've insited to walk upon the sand with bear feet though I know that sands are extremely hot during summers. I've tried to resist the pain...but the sand keeps on getting warm...burning my feet..so I gave up and went home... alone

I miss the sand.. I am still waiting for that day when I can walk around the sand again...feel the summer breeze...and Im hoping for someone who would walk with me and carry me home when my I can no longer resist the pain... and make my summer days the best days of my life :)

the shoes that don't fit

I just got the results from all my subjects in the preliminary examination.. I was happy from the results of English ( i got perfect ), Filipino ( I was the 2nd highest ), Theology ( 6 mistakes ), Environmental Science ( fair grade, actually one of the highests ), Management ( suprisingly I got 92 ), and Psychology ( fair grade enough to give me a grade of 1.5-1.75 )...

But... what upsets me was receiving a grade of 49.5 in a 6-unit major subject.. and that subject is my course ACCOUNTANCY... I never wanted to be an accountant but unfortunately I am here. I was one of the lucky students who have a background in Accounting.. I knew exactly the difference of bookkeeping,accounting and auditing; I know how to balance; I know the rules of debit and credit; I know what a worksheet looks like; and I know the purpose of adjusting entries.. in short I knew the basics.. the basics that would make me pass accounting 1a and 1b...and thats what frustrates me the most...

I can easily comprehend with my professor... I can even assist my some of my classmates.. but I never got a perfect grade in any of the quizzes I have even failed two. Damn.

Maybe I was too confident.. So I stared working things out..I read more, practiced more and I tried to listen more to my prof...

I spent more time in the library than in our house, Library, group dynamics, coffeeshop... plus pencil, ballpen, eraser, books, journals, ledger, worksheet and calculator = 5o pounds of eyebags! 5 hours of sleep a day.. whow... I never thought I could do that.. read read read....!

Prelims week: HELL WEEK..

I only slept for 6 hours in 6 days.. no kidding...

I was drowned with energy drinks

I suffered back pains, stiff neck, numb feet.. I wanted that week to end soon...

Prelims over! whew.. at last.. after 6 days of pure intoxication.. finally finally and finally Im gonna get some good sleep.. and so I slept.. slept and slept...

Wow.. I never knew I've suffered that much.. but that's it i failed the acctg preliminary exams.. oh I forgot.. I also failed Math of investment.. 6 points.. If only I got that 6 points..Anyways isn't weird even if I studied hard in acctg. and math... still I failed the exams.. Math and Acctg. the most important subjects of 1st year students...9 units.. fuck.. if I still don't pass the finals then Im gonna be debarred!

I don't know how to tell my parents.. they are expecting so much from me... I wanted to tell then that I wanted to shift in an AB course.. or in Interior design.. I know I would excel because those are my field of expertise.. I know I don't fit in AMV-COA.. but Im really trying... I don't want to disappoint my parents.. especially my mom.. as much as possible Im trying not to have thoughts on shifting...I hope I can make make it.. I really wanna make it...

Isabelle Frances Angela E. Valentos CPA.

SHOPPING

I am addicted to shopping.. I like dressing up.. basically according to my mood.. but usually I wear anything thats rock and glamorous.. I don't know if its something psychological or its just me.. but I think its pretty normal. I mean almost all teenagers these days are addicted to shopping and I am one of them. I am one of the top ten. lol

Here's a list of my favorite shops:

1. ZARA- i so love buying dresses and shoes here.. nice collection

2. TOPSHOP- skirts.. yep yep :) looking for high fashion rock or london mod style?? then this is the right place to go :)

3. MANGO- always does and always will

4. TERRANOVA- sweatshirts?? anyone??

5. PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE- home of syrup and bling blings :)

My mom is my shopping pal.. We have the same tastes in clothes (well almost) and shopping wouldn't be complete without her.. you rock mom! lol

I NEED A DRUMMER

ITS BEEN 9 HOURS 54 MINS AND 14 SECS SINCE I OPENED MY COMPUTER.

I NEED A DRUMMER

BUT IM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU ..FREAK..IF EVER YOU'RE READING THIS.. LOL

I THINK IT WOULD BE A GREAT THING IF I COULD HANG OUT WITH A DRUMMER.. ACTUALLY ITS REALLY COOL, I HAVE TRIED IT..BUT I TOLD YOU ITS NOT ABOUT YOU..

AND MAYBE I COULD LEARN HOW TO PLAY THE DRUMS .. SINCE VIOLIN ND PIANO DIDN'T WORK FOR ME.. LOL..

WELL MY MOM WANTED ME TO LEARN THE PIANO .. BUT I DON'T KNOW. I JUST CAN'T.. AND THEN I WANTED TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY THE VIOLIN AND IM TELLIN YOU IT SUCKS.. I CAN ONLY PLAY ONE PIECE AND YOU'LL TOTALLY LAUGH IF YOU FIND OUT..OK BUT ITS REALLY EMBARASSING.. TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR IN 5 VARIATIONS.. LOL..IM LAZY DURING PRACTICES.. LOL

SO MAYBE ITS TELLIN ME THAT CLASSICALS ARE NOT MY THING. I LOVE ROCK MUSIC SINCE LIKE FOREVER. I WAS JUST INFLUENCED TO LIKE HIPHOP BY MY CLASSMATES AND FRIENDS DURING THIRD YEAR HIGH AND I GOT ADDICTED TO IT. BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT I DON'T EVEN GET A SINGLE WORD FROM THEIR RAP..SO I GOT BACK FROM MY OLD GENRE.. OLD SCHOOL ROCK MUSIC, ALTERNATIVE.. AND IM GLAD TO BE BACK :)

BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT MY POINT IS I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY THE DRUMS..

WHO THE HELL IS GOING TO TEACH ME?? I DON'T KNOW.. WHOEVER IS NICE ENOUGH.. THANKS SO MUCH :)