the new CURSED word.

ok I was inspired by bryanboy (www.bryanboy.com) to do this post, regarding my weight haha, Lame as it may sound but really I realized that FAT is the new cursed word.

When I was young(er) I was really really stick thin, that's why my ballet classmates would always tease me as BUTIKI (lizard) for I never gained weight no matter what I do. On the other hand my sister Lizza was the cute and chubby one, that's why when our parents take us out with their friends or relatives Ate Zsa was always like the center of everything like your sooo cute, your sooo maputi, And then they would look at me and would say

"yan si Intet may sariling ganda"

WTF? what does that suppose to mean? So I took that as a compliment. I grew up and I've realized that what they used to say was some kind of a mockery meaning you don't look like any of your parents nor your sisters (those bitches). Well anyways, I gained weight when I was in Grade 4-6, geez I thought I was cute but na uh, I looked disgusting.

Highschool came, I was more concious with my weight, I started skipping meals. Well the result was great I lost huge amounts of FAT hahaha, but I was never contented.

"people could never be happy, the fat wants to be thin, the thin wants to be thinner"

(www.bryanboy.com)

Well that guy has a point, I was thin during my 1st and 2nd years in highschool but I never get contented, I wanted to be thinner, I wanted to be skinny (although I was so close to being one).

OK so the other years that followed became the biggest nightmares of my life. I lost track of my diet and ok I became FAT again (ouch). So heres a collection of my pictures from fourth year high to present:

YIKES! my yearbook pic my sister said I look like an alien here, well I do agree (hahaha). Weight check: completly HORRIBLE.

ahuh. summer 2006, I was in lalalalala love during those days. Weight check: fat but doesn't care. Start of college. After undergoing a break up here's the result, not so thin but lost weight. ( I look like Im sleep posing or drunk or whatever on that picture, left.) Weight check: no comment. Yuletide season 06. My GLORY days (so far, since 3rd year high) Weight check: gre-- WTF? start of SUMMER 2007, Weight check: disaster. MID of summer 2007, well what can I say, better than the 1st one perhaps. Weight check: no comment. End of summer, start of school year 2007-2008. Weight is not the only problem anymore. WEIGHT+ZITS= SHAME. Weight check: HORRIBLE. AT PRESENT, well as you can see I look like a pig already (left), that is why most of the times I runaway from paparazzis (right) hahaha kidding, but I lost like half of my confidence and It kills me. Weight check: MORE HORRIBLE.

So now my major goal in life is to be an ANOREXIC BITCH, nah Im just kidding but I really wanna lose weight GOSH. I've been dreaming of a runway life but how in the world is it gonna be possible if I would be looking this way. Well, all I can say is MY MISSION STARTS NOW.