Moving on

I haven't really thought that I would still be updating this blog after that final happy holidays story I shared a month ago.

Well anyway, Actually this week was one of my bests weeks ever, a lot of good things had happened, some I don't really expect at all. And I thank God for all those wonderful blessings I had this week, simple things could really make you happy.

But a while ago, I was going home with my friend and it was raining so we got stuck under the bridge somewhere near our office and we were talking about our futures, she resigned just a few weeks back and as much as I wanted to be really really happy for her (and I really am), I just feel really depressed now that she's going in few days time. I even wrote on her planner (without letting her know) that I would miss her so much and that I would always love to go and drink coffee with her after work. We've been friends since college and I just don't know how to go on work without her, we practically started our first jobs together and now it's all me.

There was that something in the way she spoke to me which almost made me cry like when she said that the hardest part for me will be on the first day of being alone in the office. And suddenly I found myself imagining that particular moment and I saw in her eyes that she was sad too.

I keep telling her how jealous am I of her, finally she will be having the break we both wanted (because we started working right after graduation) and it sucks to be alone in a place where I can't stand the power tripping moods of the bosses.

Another thing that made me sad today was because of my other friend in college, who's staying in Japan right now. Two years ago we were talking of how much she would want to go back and stay here in the Philippines but our conversation last week was contradicting to what she originally planned and what we were really expecting.

In this post, I have revealed two great fears of mine, one is growing up and two is being alone. I'm not really that person who is hesitant to accept changes but things like these make me feel really sad, maybe because I, myself knew that I'm the only one who isn't moving on my spot right now and that I'm feeling left behind.

Anwyay, I'm praying to God for more good things to come, specially the ones that I've been waiting and asking for more than a year now..

:)

Holiday Blues

I had that dream last night, I was in that place where I wanted to be and I was walking along with someone I really really like and it was snowing and at the middle of the road I stopped and said to myself "this doesn't feel right" then I looked at the person I am with and gave him a puzzled look and he punished me with a smile.

Then suddenly I felt empty, I knew I was dreaming but I couldn't escape from it all. I've constantly been making this picture of me in that place with that man but then all of a sudden things weren't right anymore.

In my dreams I tried to run away, and the guy I was with just stared at me with confusion, I said I was sorry and I need to be somewhere else.

I woke up not remembering what I dreamt of, few minutes after everything came back and I felt the same way like I was in my dreams, empty.

Try not to take me seriously, I just miss blogging about my blues oh, I've moved out by the way, I'm now writing more about fashion and self obsession, the "IT" stuffs these days. Make me happy today and visit me at Urban Dai

see y'all and Happy Holidays

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life sucks

the only person who wanted to talk to me doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

way to go intet.

random missing photos

And so it's been too long since I've blogged. I need to lose weight. seriously.

why so serious?

First, I've been told that summer had started already, no wonder I was showering with sweat a while ago.

Second, Shopaholic movie isn't really Confessions of a Shopaholic, well yea, I got a bit disappointed, but if I haven't read the book like thrice, the movie would have been nice ( or not hahaha ).

Third, I am actually considering of looking for another company, well that would really be meaning that I would be giving up on my Magazine Marketing something something dream. I had to put in mind that Andy Sachs and Rebecca Bloomwood worked for a magazine publication. HAHA Ok Conde Nast, I'm on my way bla bla.

And the rest of the seriousness is caused by the that "what-does-an-intern-wear-on-her-on-your-on-the-job-summer-training-where-almost-all-people-from-the-company-are-hot-and-fashionable-and-when-this-intern-is-broke-to-death (not to mention fat)-but-still-wants-to-buy-hot-spring/summer 09 clothes."

that would be all.