Stupid thoughts: We, She and I

"Who doesn't long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody tell me why I'm on my own

if there's a soul mate for everyone"- NB

2. LOVE

Next thing to growing up that bothers me lately is love. As a we grow older we learn the sweetness and happiness of finding someone to share your life with but sadly we also learn the bitterness of losing someone we treated so special. We then realize that the beauty we have found a while ago could not be ours forever. Love is something so precious that we need to get hurt, and feel down a lot of times before finding the real one, so that when that time comes when love has found its way, we already have grown into a much more experienced and much more stronger person.

I think the start of the quest is when a person falls in love and broke her heart for the first time. You see, when a person has already experienced how to love she then can't live without it anymore. Though at some point she may not be thinking about it maybe because she gets her life busy but she knows and she feels that one part of her life is missing.

I've just told a friend that he shouldn't be looking for love, for it will find him in the least moment he is expecting it. But why am I still looking for it? Yes, I do believe that God has planned this special someone for us but what if I don't end up with that someone? How will I know if my someone is already there? What if my someone already came but I let him slip away? (sigh).
Maybe it's too early for me to think about love, for I am still way too young but who knows maybe after years I would be having difficulties finding my someone. O well whatever happens, I know that God is always with me and that love will always be around.

Stupid thoughts: things are different now

Lately I am having these stupid thoughts in my mind:

1. Growing Up

Everything just seem so fast. Yesterday I was in greenbelt chapel, and while listening to priest's sermon I noticed a little boy playing just in front of me then a little girl came by then after a while they're already playmates.

Then I remembered when I was a little girl, My best playmate was my sister. We we're always together and we spent our childhood days killing each other ( well almost. haha ok lets just say we often have cat fights ). Then I looked at my sister ( she was just sitting beside me ), " things are different now " I said to myself, We're pretty much closer now, we still do have cat fights but it will only last for about 30 mins or less.

The two kids in front of me stopped playing the little chubby girl went to her mom and the little skinny boy went to his brother ( I think they started playing ).

" hay ang sarap talagang maging bata "

True, When you're a kid you don't mind about things, People are always nice to you, You're parents give you everything that you want and you're always happy. That's something I didn't know when I was a kid, all I wanted to happen was to grow up so I could learn how to drive, so I could wear the stuffs that my teenage ate's were wearing, so my mom could always bring me when she goes out, so I could stay up late, so I can go to college bla bla bla..

And so years passed by I still don't know how to drive ( hahaha ), I am only seventeen but it feels like I am sooo old. Weird, I know but really I am afraid of growing up. Six more months and I'll be a real adult, I'll be responsible for my own actions by then, I could even be sent to jail by then (haha too exaggerated). In the next three years I'll be graduating from college and months after that I'll be taking the board exam. Then what happens next? what if I don't pass the board? what will be my job like? what if things don't end up the way I wanted it to be..

Maybe what I'm really trying to say is that when I was kid I didn't knew how hard it was to be a grown up. I knew that grown ups face a lot of problems but I didn't knew that handling problems about your family, friends, school, relationships, health, and future would be way too difficult than expected.

Time really goes by so fast it was just yesterday when I was crying because my sister hid my school ID and then the next day I was crying because of an ex-lover. I wish I could be a kid again but years of my childhood could never go back anymore, I could not just simply tell the time to stop or go back so I wouldn't be feeling this way, maybe the right thing to do is just to live life the way it is. In the real world you can't always get what you want, people are not always nice, there's no escape in getting old, and you're not always happy but what I like about the real world is that you always have a choice.


to be continued...

the BOOT problem

Last night, kuya Marbs came by. My sister said she asked kuya Marbs to reboot the computer because it was having a lot of problems lately.
Then after a while Ate asked me if she could borrow my USB so she could back up the files stored in the computer, but my other sister lost my USB and she also lost hers.And so my sister and kuya Marbs continued the "rebooting" and I didn't know what happend next. I just woke up this morning and I found out that all my files, music, and pictures.. damn pictures were erased already.. and I don't even know how to react on this stupid situation but I really wanna freak out. All my pictures are gone... shocks.

new school year, new class, new adjustments

ok so I'm already enrolled, I hate it our section got dissolved f*ck. Luckily classmates ko padin yung mga former classmates ko like Mavic, Mariko, Christianne and Nestor ( oh my.. shit!! hahaha peace ) . Anyways I got myself in a series of unfortunate events. ok so here it goes

1. Im not wearing my school uniform so the stupid security guard won't let me in.. buti nalang.... I was with my mom and she explained that I just got out from the hospital few weeks ago and bla bla bla then my mom showed the security guard my medical certificate.. whew ligtas.. haha.

2. The only possible way for me and my friends to be classmates again is to get the same schedule in the p.e. class. So we chose basketball ( bckt14), Carrie, Royce, and Mavic got that sched but when it was my turn sh*t.. naubusan ako ng spot. grrrr.. hahaha

3. So, I looked for Angel ( kasi si Angel hindi pa sya nakakaget ng sched for pe haha )
kaya lang...

4. Angel and I have no idea kung what yung schedule ng section namin so hindi pa namin alam kung what yung right pe sched to choose... so we asked kuya jumong haha but he wanted us to fall in line pa duh. hahaha the line there was super long so we decided to get na a sched for pe and nstp. ( haha come what may..)

5. When I was about to tell the secretary again what pe shed I wanted but I noticed that I've lost my cheque ( oh my.. sh*t, the cheque was signed already.. Im doomed!!! ) Buti nalang ulit Angel was so nice.. haha she told me na we should go to the paging section but before we got there my sister's name was called ( because sa kanya yung cheque )

" Abigail Faye E. Valentos" then I came running.. " ow ow.. that's mine.. that's mine.. ako yun yun" then the pe prof told me " hay nako. next time I lock mo na yung cheque mo sa katawan mo may signature pa naman yan. " I just laughed and said " thank you po.. hahaha"

6. So I found my cheque.. yipee.. Ayan its time to get my sched ( kanina pa to hahaha finally ). Basketball Coed for my pe, then lts for my nstp. hahaha ( and si Angel lang ang classmate ko sa pe and lts )

7. I thought everything was over when I realized na lost ID pla ako, shit haha so I went to TAN- YAN-KEE buliding and went straight to the ID room. I thouht I was gonna get my ID na pero super dami pa plang stop over, I need to go to the three offices ( AMV dean's office, OSA, and MAIN bdlg. ) to get my form signed ( shit inikot ko na buong UST nun. ) haha. Ok so I went fist sa AMV dean's office oooppps wala si Atty. whoever out of town haha so I told my mom na we should go home na.

and here's my sched for this sem

RM DAY TIME SUBJECT
416 MWF 11-12 pm ENG 104
416 MW 12-1 pm COMP 1
COMP LAB 1 F 7-10 am COMP 1
416 MWF 1-2 pm MATH 605
416 MWF 2-4 pm ACCT 2A & B
PNC TH 7-9 am PE ( BCKT 26 )
416 TTHS 11-12 pm HUM 1
416 TTHS 12-1 pm BA 4C
416 TTHS 1-2 pm ECO 2A
416 TTHS 2-3 pm PHL 5

then I have NSTP LTS 1. I think its every sundays, and look haha no theo for this sem.. why o why?
O well, Im totally gonna miss my former classmates.. new school year, new class new adjustments.. I just wish Carrie, Royce and Angel can transfer to 2a8 which is quite impossible.. hate it.

sleepless post.

kainis I've been suffering from " not so good sleep" lately.. I mean I do get 10 hours of sleep kaya lang super ang daming cuts. I hate it mas ok pa yata if I would not sleep at all. That way my mom would scold me again... hahaha.. Im just kidding... pero I wish I could get a good sleep na.

xoxo

intet